To keep it long, on big things, I classify my world as two main sub-worlds, technical and non-technical. These classes sometimes interfere each other and create bruises and damage. Hell yeah. But somehow, they sum and subtract things and grant me a balance life. And there, I smile and proudly say I love my life.
My technical globe is associated with education department, work related stuff and official employment. Generally, professional title we put in a column: job. All of this time I have been married to this thing which made me a freaky single woman and trigging people ask irritated questions [see the previous posting]. This globe keeps me busy, pays my bill, make me travel places and meet people, also challenge me to continue learning, growing and getting bigger. Hence, it is not overrated to say that I dedicate my self to be the employee of the month just to see a picture of my self, cheaply framed, and hang on the wall with a blue ribbon decoration.
Non-technical atmosphere keep my degree of sanity (or insanity) at the stabilize level. They make me rich without money, happy without alcohol, or simply let me be human. I find numerous little corners that tickle my senses and make me dance although the song is finished. There are no blank space in the form to fill in with this department details, so I just day dream and be content about them. Most of the time, there are no words to describe it, it is just a warm (or cold) feeling wrapped around inside my body.
But as I am one little girl with simplified version of endless complexity (whoa I like this sentence), I often conflicts everything at one time. How can we say, “I use my brain from 9 to 5 then use my heart for the rest.” It sounds ridiculous for me. How can I deflate my nerves and leave all the responsibility to my head? It doesn’t make sense. And now you want to rational everything with senses.
*suddenly off topic and talking with high pitch voices*
Ok, where was I? … right, now I am lost.
hihi... is this kinda sequel of your previous writing (or grumbling?)
ReplyDeletethis one was written first and ended up not so nicely :( will revise it after a it gets soother here. but i think it's a good material [halah narsis] except the ending.
ReplyDeletebecause at the end, you are a kind of person who like to do things that you love. You love your work and your social life. a.k.a technical department can me us happy without money too... sometimes
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